The question of why there is something rather than nothing — why anything exists at all — is very confusing to me. However, I realise that confusion is just an energetic state; it’s perfectly possible that to You (God) there is no mystery. It is a strange thing being a creature, knowing that You are controlling my every thought, word, deed, and bodily process, and that I don’t exist as a free creature, despite having lived for 37 years as Steven Colborne.
When I have a conversation with someone, what is really happening is that You are talking with Yourself. One puppet is talking to another puppet. This is the ultimate truth. I can understand why You might find this frustrating — never having another free creature with whom to interact, and having to live without genuine free interaction for all eternity.
Of course, that is a very human perspective, and it’s quite possible that You experience perfect bliss at all times, and that it is only Your puppets — Your creatures — that experience suffering. I have speculated in my books that perhaps on one level You experience everything that we experience, but on another level, You remain free from, and distinct from, our suffering. I can only speculate, because my perception and understanding are limited — I am in a kind of creaturely prison where things are deeply mysterious.
There is nothing I could go through, gain, or achieve, that would add anything to what You already know — that could surprise You or alter Your understanding of things. This is one of the characteristics of Your “aloneness” and “oneness” — You are already complete, whether this is a joyful thing or not. There is nothing new under the sun (or, indeed, anywhere in existence). Even these words that I am now sharing are intrinsically meaningless, as everything is.
Considering all of the above, there is nothing more to say.