Perfect Chaos

Good day friends,

A few weeks ago I was led by the Lord to virtually exterminate my online presence. I set this blog to ‘private’, deleted my Substack publication and my online shop, took all of my books off sale and thought that I might be embarking upon a new course in life that was as tech-free as possible.

I’m sure you can relate to the sense of frustration I felt because of the over-saturation of technology in the societies of the modern world. We have become so dependent upon it, yet it has caused untold harm to relationships, to families, to careers, and to the way societies operate.

I’m quite surprised, in a sense, to have come back online. It was only after plenty of prayerful consideration that I made the decision to do so. I think it’s a kind of concession – I feel passionate about writing and my writing career is inescapably bound up with technology. I had to ask God whether it would really be wise for me to go back online, but for my particular life and its circumstances it seems it does make sense.

Due to an ongoing situation with the financial support I was receiving but no longer receive, I have been learning to live with very little and sometimes no money. There have been several weeks recently when I have had no money whatsoever to spend, and you don’t realise how hard such a situation is until you have been in it. The depression and stress have been intense at times, leading to desperate measures such as near overdoses of medication, but the Lord promises me He will provide and He always does.

If anyone reading this is naively thinking ‘Why doesn’t he just get a job?’ I would like to honestly reassure you that I am always willing to work in whatever role God has for me and work is never far from my thoughts and prayers. God knows I am always willing to work hard. But in a society that is corrupt in many ways, decisions concerning work can be complicated.

I am close to eviction in the home where I have lived for the last twelve years due to an issue with benefits that began very trivially but which has become rather complex. I am always looking to be obedient to God in every situation, and I have historically gone to Him for guidance and direction on a daily basis. At present, He is encouraging me to ‘live in the now’ and has explained that excessive planning of one’s future is Satanic – it is God who makes plans, and we should not. So rather than making plans to escape my current financial hardship, I am simply trusting God to work things out and not making plans myself.

I don’t know whether I will resume writing blog posts regularly or not, and you will understand why from what I wrote in the previous paragraph. I have been working on reestablishing my online bookshop, and my present thinking is that this will be the exclusive platform on which my books are available moving forward.

I would like to apologise for not keeping up with your blogs (assuming some fellow bloggers are reading this). The truth is that my dislike and distrust of technology overrode my wishes to engage in a loving way with fellow bloggers, so please don’t take it personally if you are wondering why I stopped interacting with your blog.

I sincerely hope you are all well and thriving in whatever role the Lord has given you at this stage in your life. Please stay optimistic and keep believing in the goodness of God.

Love from Steven x