Dear all,
A few weeks ago I was feeling troubled by the effects that being on medication was having on my body and mind. I made the difficult decision that I would stop taking some of the tablets I had been prescribed because I was worried they were doing more harm than good.
For several weeks following that decision I was in a kind of crisis. I experienced some unsettling states of mind and turned to drinking alcohol to help me cope. It was only when I resumed taking the tablets that things settled down and I started to feel more grounded.
The states of mind and the experiences I had when I stopped taking the tablets were so frightening that I now feel I must continue taking medication for the foreseeable future – maybe even life (although healing is always possible, of course). I’m just so thankful that today, for the first time in a long while, I feel things are back ‘on track’.
I decided to delete my recent post in which I was questioning whether I might be the man of lawlessness mentioned in 2 Thessalonians in the New Testament. I was not in a good state of mind when I wrote that post. The Lord has repeatedly assured me that I am not that person.
My hope is that I will forever be on the side of good rather than evil, that I would be a light of love in the world, and that I would never do, say, or think anything that would be an affront to the Lord Jesus, who I only ever wish to honour.
Wishing you all well.
Steven
Perfect Chaos 