Perfect Chaos

Friends,

Thank you so much if you said a prayer for me while I was experiencing loneliness. I reached out to a Christian friend who I met many years ago, and he visited me at my flat today.

We discussed the Bible and Qur’an. My friend believes the Qur’an is a fabrication and that it is from Satan. This strikes me as odd, as the Qur’an itself contains prayers of protection against Satan. But I’m open to further discussions, and we agreed on the importance of establishing the truth.

My friend seemed to be filled with the Holy Spirit and I think we both realised that I wasn’t and we had a discussion about how it’s possible to live a ‘Christian’ life, even be baptised in a church (as I was), but not experience the shift in the spiritual dimension that occurs when you really receive the Holy Spirit (I am paraphrasing our discussion). I asked if it was possible for me to have this experience, but he said not today, it’s a process.

My friend had to go and visit someone else this afternoon, but he said he is going to link me up with someone who will support me and help me, for which I am most grateful.

My friend is shortly to embark on a missionary trip and it’s unlikely I will see him again for a while, which is sad.

I asked my friend if he would pray for my damaged arm, because I truly believe in the miraculous healing power of Jesus, and he put his hands on my arm and prayed a few times, but on this occasion I wasn’t healed.

My friend shared with me the Hebrew for the saying of Jesus “I am the way, the truth, and the life” and explained a layer of meaning behind it that I wasn’t aware of, which was beautiful.

When my friend left, I felt a little worried that I would fall into a depressed state of mind, and I remarked that it’s hard to have believed I have lived many years as a Christian only to discover I am not yet one. However, there was nothing really troubling about our discussions in terms of a lack of honesty and transparency, and rather than feeling depressed, I actually feel hopeful.

I’ve been struggling with sin a lot, and what I realised today is that I need to be filled with the Holy Spirit in order to have the spiritual strength to avoid temptations to sin.

I hope that nothing about this article troubled or unsettles you. You can always say a prayer for God to comfort you, guide you, and help you, if you are troubled, or in doubt.

Thank you for reading and God bless you.